Showing posts with label relationships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label relationships. Show all posts

12.21.2008

The Brit: Part 2



So i mentioned the brit back in the beginning.
He was the out of town gentleman i was clicking with before i fell down a flight of stairs. So anyways.. i thought i would update that story... You would think that would be the end of it. He would go back to England and i would go back to my life. But this is my life.. so of course it can't be predictable.
We have entered into this weird online relationship where we talk frequently and flirt (thorugh emails?) and there are talks of visits. He wants to fly over there, and he has started talking about coming to see me within a coupe months. Is this normal?! Has anyone ever done this before? How does this work? Basically i need help!

12.20.2008

The L Word

I think part of my singledom arises from my fear of intimacy and commitment. I usually don't know how I feel about someone until I've already screwed the relationship up. I'm terrified of the big L - love. In fact, I've never said "I love you" to a guy. I'm not a complete freak - I tell my friends and family I love them all the time. I just can't be that open and honest with a guy I'm in a relationship with. And it's kinda landed me in a pickle.

I dated a guy for awhile - we'll call him A. We never really established our relationship - again my commitment issues. But it was about as serious as I've ever gotten with a guy. I knew A in high school, but we didnt date until college. Now we live in different cities, but we still keep in touch and are good friends. When I was home for Thanksgiving, he came over and spent the holiday with my family. Then we went out. Then we hooked up. Then he said "I love you." and my response was "no you don't" It was kinda uncomfortable after that...
-M